Tuesday, 27 April 2010

Compromise and Success

One of the most powerful moments in my life was at the end of the First Sphere when the Ishayas suggested that I ask myself:
“Where in my life am I compromising?”

It absolutely blew my socks off because compromise was the last thing I wanted to do, yet when directly examined under such a spotlight I saw my life was riddled with compromise.

It was a powerful motivator to move, to go beyond my cosy situation and start to realise what I really wanted to do in life. It remains a potent guide.

This question requires knowing where you are heading - what you consider to be success. Success could mean making a million pounds, or simply getting out of bed every morning. I love that because it’s completely personal, is different depending on which part of your life you are talking about, and changes over time.

So: How do you personally know you are compromising? What is compromise to you? What is success? How do you know you are living a full life?

Seriously Simple

Why, when it comes to spirituality, do people get so serious and vexed and bent out of shape?

There's plenty of examples in the traditions of the world. Dozy Zen monks being beaten with sticks, guilty Christians whipping themselves, Bodhidharma supposedly tearing off his eyelids so he wouldn't lose awareness when meditating, the predominant image of Jesus being one of pain and suffering, Hindhus doing silly things to their bodies in the name of God.

I've taken things veeeery seriously in my pursuit of joy and peace. I have tried hard to be joy. I thought that I had to fight and strain against my mind, struggle and lock it down in order to experience peace.

I'm so grateful I met the Ishayas. I could quite easily still be starving myself, waking early every morning to do my yoga, criticising myself if I ever wanted to sleep in, or felt the urge to eat an icecream or a meat pie. I made myself sit cross legged and with a straight spine for an hour every day, even though sometimes my whole body cried out for relief.

Weird.

When I met the Ishayas I thought they were simple people. Simple as in stupid cos they were laughing all the time. I thought they might have something with this Ascension business, but obviously they didn't know what they really had because they didn't even take it seriously.

Makes me laugh now at my absolute arrogance. At least I gave Ascension a go because all that arrogance and harshness melted in the face of what the attitudes enlivened in me.

Ascension has given me an experience of complete presence, a beingness that simply takes over any limitation or self violence. There's nothing to do except choose for it and live. Its given me the ability to laugh at everything. Its given me total contentment of what is, exactly as it is.

The Truth requires no seriousness or hardness or processing or guessing or anything to experience it. It also needs no diet or exercise regime or any change whatsoever.

You need nothing else, except right now, choose an Ascension Attitude and live your life.

It is that simple.

You can just let go and trust that that is all that is required.

You can let go and trust that now is enough. Because now is not enough. It is everything.

I'm so grateful for that simplicity, I can't tell you.

"Why God, Why?"... When Life Hurts

I had the belief that the more spiritually advanced I got, the more my life would become free of challenge and sadness.

The challenges of life, big and small, haven't stopped. People I love die, grow old, get sick. I still have to pay the bills, I have to clean the toilet. Life in all its colours and shades continues. But my reaction to it has changed.

From what I have lived through, I can tell you this: Peace is possible in any situation. Painful events may be there, but ongoing, soul questioning suffering is, when it comes down to it, a choice, optional.

This is the invitation of all the world's teachers, and it's true: There is salvation.

When my mum died of cancer, I was surprised to find myself responding in the way I did. Rather than see it as a loss, the overwhelming response was of fullness, of celebration for her life. I was grateful for the time I did have with her, the fact that in no small way she helped make me what I am today.

It was an amazing experience, and one that came because of my Ascension practice.

When life hurts, it means we aren't accepting what is. We're fighting, we're struggling, we're shaking our fist at God and asking "WHY?". As Eckhart Tolle pointed out, the answer is always this:
If you can't change or leave a situation, the only solution is to allow and accept. Anything else is torture, and nothing or no one can stop the pain until you stop struggling. Everytime.

Ascension gives you this acceptance, just by your willingness to set aside the cares of the moment, step into presence and say an Ascension Attitude.

The more you gently immerse yourself in the Ascendant, the more you become non-resistance itself. God sees fit to place you here, and remove this person to here, so be it. No longer do you question and fight, but you find it simpler and simpler to allow, involve yourself in presence again and do what you can do. Life becomes free.

Of course, it is easy to make the choice for seeing the glass half full, to accept, to see the positive when everything is going well. Its a different kettle of fish when its not.
If its not easy, its time to get help. You don't need to do this alone.

It's worth getting that help. It's worth doing everything you can to be at peace. It's worth re-committing to your practice.

By making the choice now, you set your future ahead of you. This choice becomes easier and easier to make, no matter the situation.

Lao Tzu once wrote: "Be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you".

You want that?

Friday, 5 March 2010

Chop chop carry carry

Before enlightenment chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment chop wood, carry water.
Zen saying

In the east there is an old story about the appearance of mastery and humility. It is of an old caretaker in the monastery, contentedly serving all by doing the lowly tasks of sweeping and cleaning. The young arrogant monks suspect nothing but an ignorant peasant, but the abbot and older monks know that in their midst lives the greatest Teacher in the land.

The young monks treat the old man with distain and disrespect, the old sage in turn does not care what anyone thinks of him. The story goes that one monk makes friends with the old man and learns much about appearances, ambition, and his own judgements.

I love this story because everyone wants to be someone. Very rare are those that want to be themselves. People want to be famous, to be recognised. With noble intention we want to make a difference, especially if the difference is noticed far and wide.

We also believe that we should be doing something else. That our lives are not noble as they are. That who we are and what we do is not good enough. Many spiritual people fall into this trap. That if we were truly spiritual we would look and act and be a certain way, most definitely different from what we are right now. That we would ‘arrive’ and make an impact on the world through best-selling books and interviews with Oprah. In that vision there is always an assumption that those who aren’t doing that are compromising, that they aren’t complete.

Again in the east, water is used often as a metaphor for humility and service as it flows to the lowest point, serving and supporting all life, able to be transformed to whatever is needed. It has no ambitions beyond to fulfil its purpose in life.

What is our purpose in life? For me it is to dissolve without trace of limitation into the Ascendant. To know absolute love and joy and peace. To follow the will of God in every moment. Perhaps that means chatting with celebrities about inner peace, perhaps it means sweeping the courtyard. It could simply be looking after the people around me, making sure they have what they need and know they are loved. Whatever it is, it is doing it with presence and connection, service and contentment.

Thursday, 19 November 2009

6 tips on living life fully and without negativity

1. Learn to meditate
Meditation allows you to see what your mind is telling you and gives you the power to choose what you want to focus on. It builds a relationship with who you really are, beyond all the habits and beliefs of the mind. Sometimes we are able to fall gracefully into a state of complete focus, but many times we cannot. Basically this is because most of our life is lived in a scattered way. Our minds are constantly thinking, mostly about things that we have no control over. We are not present with what we are doing. So it is no surprise that when we want or need to focus our attention it is not always easy. Practicing what happens in our conscious awareness is necessary. Greek philosopher Aristotle said ‘We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then is not an act, but a habit.’ This habit comes quick through meditation.
There are three things that help with meditation. Firstly, it involves absolutely no force of any kind. Interestingly, so many people try to clear their minds of thought when they meditate. The truth is that this is impossible. You have thoughts flowing through your mind because you are alive. The key to meditation is regaining control of your attention and changing your relationship with your thoughts and feelings, not suppressing the natural tendency of your mind! It becomes so much easier when you appreciate this.
Secondly, a teacher or coach is invaluable. Like learning any skill, a personal trainer helps smooth the way, making progression much faster. They stop you from reinventing the wheel and can answer all the questions you have, helping dispel doubts and keep you on track.
Thirdly, regular practice is necessary because your mind is very much like a muscle. Getting your focus in shape requires gentle persistence and application over time. But as the results are immediate and clear it’s a very motivating thing to practice. Every part of your life starts to benefit when you are there participating in it.


2. Be present and aware
Meditation helps with this, but start noticing when your mind wanders to another time and place. Through habit we are rarely in the same place as our bodies are, with our minds in other places and situations, constantly trying to change the past and control the future. Neither are possible, and we miss out on our lives that are right in front of us right now as well. Buddha said ‘Life can take place only in the present moment. If we lose the present moment, we lose life.’ Even people like businessman Donald Trump agree: ‘I try to learn from the past, but I plan for the future by focusing exclusively on the present. That's were the fun is.’

3. Choose to appreciate
We have the ability to choose to appreciate or condemn (at least something) about every situation or every person we come into contact with. Its like the old choice between seeing the glass as half empty or half full. You can make the choice to be optimistic, and your body and awareness respond in kind. What you put your attention on grows, and what’s more, its our choice. The more you see the good in your life, the more it grows. Be active with your appreciation. Find things to appreciate about the people around you - your family, your friends, your colleagues, and strangers - shop keepers, taxi drivers, people on the street.

4. Be thankful
Related to the above is the power of gratitude. Quite simply you can’t complain and be thankful at the same time. To cultivate the power of gratitude, make a list of the 10 things that you are grateful for in your life. Review the list regularly and realise how much there is in your life. Don’t take anything for granted, especially the people closest to you. Remember to take a moment to see how much people do for you and you’ll never ignore how much goodness is in your life already. Say “thank you”. A call or a card is everything to those that receive it. 14th century German churchman Meister Eckhart once said “If the only prayer you said in your whole life was "Thank You", that would suffice.”

5. Watch complaining carefully
Complaining is the opposite of appreciation. Sometimes its necessary to blow off a little steam about something, but we always do this for far too long. Eckhart Tolle wrote that complaining “invariably carries an unconscious negative charge. When you complain, you make yourself a victim… Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options: remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally.” “All else is madness”. And as Jesus said too, ‘Judge not…’

6. Give
Giving is the most powerful way to change your state of being. Many large companies and business people already do this in terms of giving money and time to projects of their choosing. You will find that giving is the best way to get what you want. It works with everything. If you want more hugs, give hugs. If you want more understanding, be understanding. If you want more money, give money. If you want more knowledge, give knowledge.
Find the time and energy to give to others and you’ll find it revolutionary, especially if you are stuck in a rut. There is nothing like giving to take the attention off your problems and give you a wider, more complete perspective on life.

Monday, 18 May 2009

A Love Story

There are times in one’s life when it all makes sense, when everything becomes clear. Perhaps you remember a time like this for you, at the time of the birth of your children, when you fully committed to your partner, when a loved one dies, or perhaps you were simply with friends or alone, enjoying the company and the moment. In these times the priorities of your life become so apparent that sometimes you cannot fathom why you made anything else more important, why you chose to live any other way. Without a doubt you know that love is the most important thing: Your love for the moment, for people, for the place, but most of all, for yourself. It is so clear that love is all, that this love is a love that needs nothing else, that needs no one else, that is content and perfect in itself. These are the great moments of our lives, the times when we fully rest in the lap of God.

It’s something everyone wants. In one form or another, creatively or destructively, consciously or unconsciously, we all seek to fill our lives with this experience of completeness. Everything anyone does is for the greatest love, even when it looks like a mad grasp for security or self esteem by attempting to take from others. The whole world spins around a version of love, whether a memory or an actual experience, it doesn’t matter, love is the only thing that motivates life. Obviously, how we experience love makes the crucial difference to our experience of life, yet the realisation that everyone around you is motivated by the same thing - however it looks - is of huge significance. There becomes an experience, not of greater and lesser, but of different choices, of compassion for all that exists.

You also start to experience love as the core of creation. You see love as the cause of everything. It becomes harder and harder to see anything else, even in challenging events. You truly live life as it was meant to be lived, resting in the deeper experience, never moving from full enjoyment of every moment, this full enjoyment motivating greater and greater love and silence to flow into your awareness, an endless cycle of love and joy blossoming at simply being able to experience presence and life in this moment. Nothing better.

As the whole world revolves around love, bringing the fullest version of love to the world is a simple thing. It comes by you personally filling this moment up with attention rooted in silence. The more you do this the more you come into love. The more you are love, the more love comes to the world. It’s so simple and so enjoyable. You begin a love affair with the still presence in your being and the more you give yourself to the relationship, the more you fulfil your purpose of being alive.

Now here is the best part. Once again, as it has been said and experienced from the dawn of time: You don’t have to believe this to be true. You move towards experiencing this and the results are self motivating - you prove it to be true to yourself. If love in its many forms is important to you, perhaps a suspicion of the variety that “if it works for some it may just work for all” would help motivate you too to live the fullest possible experience of being here on this planet. But really, even the desire for only a little more in your life will bring you more love than you can handle. As someone once said, even a small amount of faith that there is more to life, only the size of say, a mustard seed, will bring great things to you.

But you have to actually do it. Fortunately, there is nothing simpler in starting to walk towards more. You rest in this moment, say an Ascension Attitude, and gently and innocently watch, notice, observe, stay aware. Notice that the only thing that creates anything else but silence is your mind, the only thing that stops love is you believing the judgments of your mind are right. You allow your awareness to relax beyond the confines of the mind and there you are, resting in the lap of God once again, fulfilling the reason for this moment in time, fulfilling the reason why you have a choice. As you do this you’ll find love is the only thing that lasts, the only thing that is the salve to all your troubles, and the only thing that is the underlying source of all your desires. Love truly is all.

Thursday, 11 September 2008

When friends go without saying goodbye

I only met Wendy on a couple of occasions. Both times I was amazed by her lightness and her absolute goodness. Teaching meditation means that sometimes people's personal stress comes up for them. Wendy was incredible to have around whenever this happened in a class because clearly here was a lady who had so much more on her plate than most people could even imagine and yet she came through shining. But she always listened with perfect compassion. She was incredible like that.

The saddest thing about most of humanity is that only others can truly see how magnificent we are. We are the last to appreciate our own being for the beauty that it contains. It reminds me to make sure that my loved ones know what a difference they make to my life. I wish in particular that Wendy could have known how deeply she touched my heart and inspired me.

If Wendy has taught me anything it is that we can choose to fill life with goodness and hope and magic and love. The only thing that stops us is ourselves. We are the only ones that see ourselves as not worthy, we are the only ones that see our lives as insignificant. We can make another choice though: we can choose to see ourselves as others see us, we can choose to see ourselves as God sees us.

With perfect love Wendy, fly free.